I feel socially lonely. The loneliness comes from not being able to relate to the people that love me the most. When I was younger, I was proud that I was different than others. I enjoyed going to school and church. I enjoyed playing sports in the field with the neighborhood kids or climbing trees with my relatives. I love the values that my great grandparents and my uncles instilled in me. I loved being my mother’s first child to graduate from high school and college. I loved how I stood apart from the rest. 

Now that I am older, all of the accomplishments I’ve achieved have become distant memories. Friends have come and gone. Life has moved forward, and I find myself in a position where I want to make friends and accomplish even more goals and dreams. I want to go and chill with friends at a cafe and chat about life. I want to travel to first-class with my boo and our friends. Dreams do and will come true, but first, I have to prepare myself for this life-altering event. 

I have people that call me from time to time. We talk, enjoy a conversation, and say our goodbyes until next time we speak. I’m allergic to calling people (I credit this to working years in the customer service industry). So conversations I have via phone is from someone calling me. I want to change that.

I know that for me to accomplish this, I have to be willing to step out of my comfort zone (I am starting to rock in my bed as I type this). I have to start calling people, even if it’s to say hi, how are you and bye. Outside of that, I’m stuck. Plus, rona still lurking, and you know what? I am going to put the brakes on this whole “making friends” thing. It’s too germy for meet and greets. 

Okay, go away fear. I will start slow like I am ready to date. Is there an app for making friends?