My Focus Is Off
“The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are.”
This thought has been in my mind for a while, but I have been afraid to let it out. Due to how personal it is, I felt like some things are better left unsaid. Even though that’s true, what if someone could learn from what I am feeling? So I decided to release it from my brain and share. Hopefully, it will clear up some space for new thoughts.
I haven’t been able to focus lately. Scratch that; I have only been able to be focused on one thing for the past couple of months: mood swings. I was worried that after my pregnancy that I would have mood swings since I didn’t experience them during my pregnancy. Fortunately for me, I did not develop any. Unfortunately for me, someone else did. And boy, it’s taking me on a ride.
I’m used to this person having mood swings. I’m accustomed to it, but that does not mean that I tolerate it. I am a very understanding person, but I lose understanding when fiction comes into play. Because of only one person attempting to resolve it, there is no resolution to the issue at hand. Just another missed opportunity to correct a wrong and move forward the right way.
But now, the mood swings are constantly coming, and I can’t keep up with the complaints. The more I try to resolve the issues myself, the more new things are found to complain about. And quite honestly, it’s nerve-wracking. With each complaint I receive, I resolve. That has always been my motto, but now, I think I need a new one.
Due to my focus being on one person, I have neglected myself. I chose to disregard myself because I wanted to fix the situation. I didn’t want to feel like I was not giving it my all. I thought that I had to accept a person’s flaws, and in turn, mine would be welcomed too. Yep, I know I was wrong, to a point.
See, there’s nothing wrong with giving it your all. Making sure that you have covered all of your bases is not a bad thing. And there isn’t anything wrong with people having flaws. We all have them. But we also know what we will and will not tolerate from someone. Those flaws can not be overlooked. That is where I went wrong.
To resolve the matter, I decided to challenge myself to be a better blogger and aspiring entrepreneur. So, I am challenging myself to just focus on my family, create a business, and write on connecting more readers to my blog. I am doing this during my DiscoverMe month (I will explain that in my next post). I am turning my attention back to where it belongs. It’s time to refocus.
